So the past many-a-many days, I have been very busy.
Yo-Ville-ling at facebook.
I was online. Saw this friend go online.
Me: "Hey"
Person: "I gotta go"
Offline.
What do you make of that? Walang "hi, hello, sorry pauwi na ako". Straight forward "I gotta go". Wala man lamang courtesy to say "Bye". Bastos! To the highest level.
Sana maabutan ko ulit syang online next time para maka pag message ako ng "panget mo hayop ka!" Haha. Personalan na ito.
Gail was tinkering with my phone some night ago.
Gail : "Mommy, san ang video ng cellphone mo?"
Me: "Walang video yan anak".
Gail: "Ang pangit naman ng cellphone mo mommy"
Sabay binaba ang phone ko at lumabas ng kwarto.
This one is from the heart.
While most of us have a general idea of how the US economy has spiraled down and we all hear about the massive lay offs, the ones who work with the american market are the ones who feel the direct impact of what is happening across the many thousand miles.
Sabi nga ni Richard Gomez sa long time ago McDonalds tv ad nya, "I should know. I used to work here".
I should know. I AM working here.
My career in the export industry spans over a decade. From food ingredient manufacture to home decor manufacture to sourcing, developing and buying for big american brands. This is where I am happiest - here at Connor, which is why I am full of mixed emotions.
Dread is something constant these days. Every morning you pray that this is not the day you will be called to the office. You know that no one is indispensible, but you always hope that the value you bring to the organization will be enough to keep you as one of the last fighting to survive the storm.
It is not easy. You do not want to really spend time thinking about alternative plans and lifestyle changes and whatever disruptions to your life will come you way. You fear that if you say it out loud, it will happen. The power of the spoken word. But if you do not recognize the seriousness of the situation, you do not fight, you do not give it your all.
It is scary. It must be. You must be scared enough to sincerely want to extend yourself and sacrifice. It is not a challenge that can be won by one person alone. Teamplay has never had this much of a burden. You are not just saving yourself, you need to save everybody in order to save where you are.
So I haven't blog for a really long time. I have answered all of those tags and lists, but have not really been squeezing out any creative juice from my gray matter that I sort of feel brain dead. Nakaka miss din pala. Kahit wala kang sasabihing may sense or will change the world, nakakamiss magsulat. Nakakamiss yung may deadline, tapos wala kang maisulat kaya you end up with silly stuff like:
I turn on the light,
Control 3 second flat
Oh how I wish
Writing was just like that.
Haha. I know I was a pain for the eds back then, but they published na rin, pang puno ng space.
So what have I been up to lately? Not that you care. Or maybe you do since you bothered to start reading this post. Or maybe you don't really? ....... Whatever.
I have been facebook-ing a lot lately. I love facebook. I love knowing what other people are up to. Never mind that I believe most people romanticize what they are up to anyway. You know--
"Had a nice quiet dinner with xxx, overlooking the sunset by the bay" Which could mean anywhere in between they really had a nice quiet dinner overlooking the sunset at the bay or nagbaon sila ng kanin, adobo at kamatis, nagdala ng puting monoblock chair sa baywalk at kumain ng dinner habang palubog na ang araw, at pareho silang bingi.
or "Going to Boracay for the weekend!" She could really be going to Boracay for the weekend, pero it could be that actually nangutang sya to fund the trip, and pagbalik nya from the "fantastic weekend at Boracay!" araw araw na overtime ang kailangan para makabayad sa loan.
I think that's what I love about the posts in facebook. Trying to figure out the stories behind the posts. And if friend mo naman talaga yung nasa facebook mo, you basically know how much stretch they are making to make it appear that they are leading lives that you ought to envy. Parang electronic way of social climbing or perhaps a hi-tech version of hallucination.
Apart from the content of the posts, I look forward to the gramatical errors. Kung dangan naman kasi bakit kailangan ang mga posts in english? "Look to cook dinner" o kaya naman " Gone to province tomorrow" Kailan daw?
And syempre, hindi mawawala ang mga pictures. "Sunset in Palawan", "Sunset in Mindoro", "Sunset across my room"... Have they never heard of "Keeping a photograph is like trying to preserve a kiss"? Facebook people, makakakita ka ng sunset until the last day you breathe. Unless na lang you die the following morning, sorry na lang, sana nakita mo ang sunrise.
At mga pictures ng pagkain in various stages of consumption - kakainin, kinakain at kinain. Mas maganda siguro kung pictures ng pagkain na kinain after ma-digest. Kumpletuhin naman ang cycle.
So, in short, wala talaga akong ginagawang may kabuluhan lately.