Good
evening po. Happy last day of our Prayer
and Fasting! J Konting kembot na lang, mabubuhayan na ulit
ang mga alaga natin sa tyan. Ako po si
Kathie, and I want to share my story.
Alam
nyo po, 2 years ago I was very pre-occupied with my life. I got promoted at work.
I had meetings that required me to travel. I was very busy and I felt
important.
However,
over the course of several months I began to have stomach problems. LBM kung
LBM talaga. It got so bad, that by November 2014 I had it checked. A colonoscopy showed I had a malignant mass
in my colon, which the doctors said had to be removed right away. So I had the
operation done. I texted family and friends and asked for prayers.
An
aunt shared Psalm 91 with me, and I remember waking up in the operating room
saying this: “He is my refuge, my strength, my God in whom I trust”. Pag nagising ka po pala sa gitna ng
operasyon, talaga po palang ibibigay mo na ang lahat kay Lord. Kase di ba, baka
huling gising mo na iyon.
So
afterwards, the biopsy results came. I
had stage 2 colon cancer. Sabi ng
oncologist, I didn’t need chemo, kse stage 2 lang naman daw. But she had my specimens sent to Singapore to
check if hereditary ang cause ng cancer.
The results came back January 2015. My cancer was not hereditary and I.
did. not. have stage 2 cancer. But, surprise surprise... I had stage 3
cancer!
Alam
nyo po yung paminsan iniisip natin anong gagawin natin pag nanalo tayo ng
jackpot sa lotto? Ganun po ako when the
doctor told me, pero in reverse. I did
not think about the things I will do, but I thought about the things I won’t be
able to do.
“Stage
3, but curable” sabi ng doctor. At that moment, even the word “curable” was not
comforting. Alam mo na that your life is
numbered. The finish line became a reality. Lahat tayo will pass one day, but
we do not truly understand this until we have something tangible to attach it
to. Cancer is a very strong tangible thing.
I
thought about the many life events of my daughter that I will miss. I thought
about how my husband will cope. I thought about the emptiness of not being
there. Or of not being here. Or of just plain not being.
Ang
hirap. Ang hirap hirap. Pero alam nyo
po, sa dami ng naisip ko, hindi ko po naisip itanong kay Lord kung bakit ako. Hindi
ko na rin sinabi kay Lord na bakit ang unfair nya? Tinanggap ko na naman itong
katawan na ito kahit hindi sexy, pero bakit naman ang aga ng expiration
date? Hindi po dumaan sa isip ko na
pagdudahan ang plans ni Lord for me. Ang
alam ko lang, gagaling ako kase yun ang pangako nya, kase sabi nya sa Psalm
91:16 “With long life I will satisfy him and show him my salvation”.
Pinanghawakan ko talaga yan.
I
went through 8 chemo cycles. I was hospitalized for one major complication.
Every chemo cycle, naka “staycation” kami ng asawa ko sa hospital for 3 days. Yung
expenses was unbelievable. Pero
pinaubaya na namin yun kay Lord. He just kept providing, and providing, and
providing. May sukli pa nga! J
Pero
ang pinaka importante pong nangyari during this time of my life was that our
family got renewed in faith. Yung asawa ko po started volunteering sa ushering
ministry a week before my 1st chemo cycle. We also found our victory
groups. We found prayer partners and prayer warriors. We found our spiritual
leaders sa ating mga Pastors, lalong lalo na po kay Doc Jun. Every Sunday we would attend the service –
regardless if I just finished a cycle or about to start the next one.
October
2015, our family did the Victory Weekend.
We got water baptised – my husband, me and our 15yr old daughter. Yun po ang tutuong heart-felt joy. Yung alam
mo na this time, may maibabalik ka na kay Lord sa lahat ng kabutihan at grace
Nya sa yo. Yung i-offer mo sa kanya yung buhay mo. Yung i-dedicate mo ang bawat
araw sa Kanya. Yung i-pro-promise mo na you will try to live your life as an
encouragement at testament to how good the Lord is.
My
last chemo treatment was last year, July 8. 1 year anniversary na po bukas.
I
am currently cancer-free. All my tests have shown negative results. Sa tutuo lang, cancer marker tests lang talaga
ang tests na gusto mo zero ang score mo.
I
am healed not because sabi nila colon cancer is the easiest cancer to cure, but
because eto ang will ni Lord.
God
wills for me to be healed.
He
has it written it in His palm, that I will spring back and be a testimony to
how good and gracious and merciful He is.
I
am healed because God wants YOU to know that there is nothing He cannot
do.
That
His miracles are not just for me, but He has miracles for you too.
That
He has blessings stored up for you to claim.
Let
me wind this up by quoting the Lord’s wonderful promise in Psalm 91:14-16
“Because
he loves me, says the Lord, I will rescue him;
I
will protect him, for he acknowledges my name.
He
will call on me, and I will answer him
I
will be with him in trouble
I
will deliver him and honor him
And
with long life
I
will satisfy him and show him my salvation”
God
Bless po and happy eating later! J
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